New me (:

I just want to eat ice cream and cry.
I hate being used and never talked to again.
it’s the shittiest feeling in the world, like i’m not good enough.

i havent been sticking to my diet or workout at all and I’m really sorry for thaat.
But starting now, I’m getting back on track.
i hope you all dont think i’m a failure :(
XX hope your all doing great!

Ive realized when I dont count calories I end up going crazy and eting bad because I already feel like Ive eaten too much.
ughhh stupid mind.
I always think if I mess something up I have to keeeep going and making it worse.
IF I eat 100 calories over, then i’m always liek whatever I already ruined why not eat another 500 calories over.
dummmmmb

I’m done with everything.
i can’t keep pretending i’m happy just to please everyone else.

Because I got a new prom dress.
One I feel more comfortable in and I dont like how my arms look in it, i would like ot try to tone them up a little.
(:

I would go for a run, but my shower is backing up, and I wont be able to shower so I dont want to be even grosser that I wouldve been.

Feeling a little acomplished.